Part of the problem is her ability to go away, disappear. Even when she here she's not here. How can one possibly form any kind of relationship with her. Sometimes I have asked myself, why did we meet and come together.

What do two people who come very close have in common that binds them for that one moment or a lifetime. And why is it a lifetime's wait in one case while it's a lifetime's sharing in the other. Would I trade one for the other?